Depressed. Who..me?

I see the animated people making faces, talking or may be shouting, just seem to be hyper active. Of course, I couldn't hear the thing they were saying nor the TV which was at MAX volume as I was busy in my world of Music in my ears. And thanks to my new (now a little damaged-yet-working) headsets which cancels the outside noise completely. And on top of it adds some music to the outside. Literally, people can clearly hear what I am listening to upto as far as...hmm..er.. like 5 meters or so. Now don't get down with a measuring tape. That was just an assumption. So, these guys are watching the local version of the Comedy Circus (I guess you know this tv show, right? If not, well, it is a hindi comedy show aiming at entertaining the audience with some jokes) . Well the Hindi version is far better when compared to the regional-language one. When I used to watch the Hindi one, these guys would literally fall on me, snatch the remote and go for some other bogus channel. I sometimes go crazy at the choice of their tastes. So, this regional version that I was talking about has the worst jokes and mostly are the directly taken from You Tube. So, you can imagine the scenario here. And mostly are pure-adulterated jokes. And seriously I just can't take them in. Its fcuk'g freaking disgusting. But these people do the classic ROFL thing all the time. But I can't hear their monstrous laughs nor the disgusting TV show; Just some animated dancing-rolling fools. 

I totally stand out of all these people. I sometimes wonder what I am even doing here. I am like a Martian staying with these people. I am different, nothing new there. But then again I am not a people person. I talk less, as most of the people I know already know about it. I mind my own work, don't involve in any of their stupid/interesting encounters. I just don't participate, you know. You getting what I am meaning to tell? I am the wrong piece in the Dominos combination, the wrong card in the Deck of Playing cards. I just don't fit here. But still I am here. And I am seriously puzzled about my situation. I prefer staying alone - with my rules, with my freedom, with my things, with full of Myself. But I am not. 

I have trouble making friends. Seriously, I do. Because there are so few people whose ways sync with mine, whose thoughts match with mine (well, literally or lets just say - are somewhat close to mine) . I have been a traveler all my life. I have never been at a steady place. The most years that I had ever stayed at a single place is Ahmedabad. I might have some good friends there, and who are like me, as I just mentioned above. But people change and I move to a different place. Those people find better friends and I have to start again from scratch. It has been like that all my life. I may have seen a lot of people, made some friends, a few acquaintances but never I had someone called a best friend. What I can say is I made a few friends, some happened to be good, and some very good, infact. 

One of the best thing I can remember about making some good friends was back at the training, by the company I am currently working in. I kind of made a good friend in a matter of three months. But there is always fate or whatever the hell it is called, we got posted to different places. I need not say much about him. I might have mentioned about him at length in my previous posts. So, I thought what was the reason behind that? I too don't know exactly, so I was brainstorming about the possible things that might have led into being good friends. May be most of the things we do are in sync, like we both like to read, now read means novels for me and for him everything that could be read. We both blog. We both watch tv series. There is a serious problem with a lot of people with TV Series. They don't watch any, and even if they do, that is also after so many recommendations from a lot of people. And what do you think they are - The Korean TV series. I end my discussion there. I know there are a lot of fans out there. And I ask anything other than that - They say Prison Break. They missed a lot. The Friends, one of the best. And there is a pretty long list. And I have completed almost all, except a few, well like the Korean ones. So, where was I ? Yeah about my friend... So, I was saying ... if not all, atleast half of the things just sync between us, which hasn't happened with any other person I have ever met, though I haven't met a lot of people though. 

Recently, I removed my display picture from my Facebook profile. There were some people asking about the reason. I have told only to a few, like two people out of three. Well, the reason being that I got some exam result recently and I barely got any marks. So, that was a reaction to the very bad result that I got. I tell this to one of my friends... well not exactly like that.. I say that I am actually depressed about something ... and then tell about this. He replies saying , "That's it? I thought it was about something else, something concerned with the girl thing." If it was so, I wouldn't even have removed my DP, rather I would have upgraded to something more awesome one. Within minutes I get a new Facebook notification tagging me to this photo : 

Well, this is the first comic strip in which someone else tagged me and which involves me. Till now I had been the one creating all comic strips. This is a new one from someone. So, let me clear about something here - No, I wasn't depressed about the exam because I didn't prepare for it, not even a question. It was just for everyone else to think that I am in some kind of depressed state of mind. And I am saying again, I am not depressed. And No, I am not crying for a gf. Phew! That is the last thing I want to do. Dude, Don't lie to people. Seriously, you gotto believe me. Yeah, I would have, but it is just plainly unbelievable. I will come up with a post on the recent events and you will definitely change your answer. Whatever, dude. 

P.S. Before you say anything, I have a confession to make. I have lost my mind somewhere. I am just searching for it as we speak. When I find it I will be more sensible. 

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The Guy in the Hat says "Hi". So, I wear a red shirt and I write/speak in red also. Just to make you people clear of this thing, I took some time from this AK guy. But I will be back, with a Bang and some BOOM.