Year End.

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow."

- Albert Einstein

"That is why we fight - in hope of a day when we no longer need to."

-Barack Obama

Another year is about to come to an end. And will this day be any different. This should be. But lets don't jump into the party mood and get on the dance floor, get drunk and get a huge hangover on the first day of the year. Well, I don't drink also, so that narrows down. And also there are no much dance floors vacant either. So that narrows even further. So, umm... what's left? Nothing, right! Exactly. 

You know they say the life flashes before our eyes before we die! Okay, I am not going to die today, but we can force out thoughts to ponder about the year that just passed by and how different I am today compared to this day last year. Yeah, so I did force my thoughts to think about something amazing that just might make my day. I tried. When I mention about trying, you should also get the idea that there are no such things. Doesn't it look like I am forcing myself to think about something, something amazing, something equally awesome that never happened and wished to happen. But alas! I am left with a empty page and a dripping pen. 

I don't make resolutions because I know I am the worst at following anything. So, if I say I want to go on a diet ( which is like suicide, come on whom am I kidding? Phew! Me dieting?  ) , I would eat even more. Okay, that was a wrong example. Umm, lets talk about swearing! Not even one word was my target, though it wasn't a new year resolution, but still something I had thought of "NOT DOING". You hear me, not-doing! It is like a thing I should really do, no matter what, no matter how small the issue is. So yeah, you get the story here , right ? Keeping that in mind, I have decided to make the exact opposite of resolutions, if I make any! 

Twenty-13

Since I forced myself to think about the year, I don't remember much of the things. But let me jot down some of the normal things that aren't quite normal in my life. 

1. I got  into a project. Though there was too much drama in the beginning and even in the end, but still I could tell that this is the year, I actually started working.
2. I got to make a few good friends as the year drew to its near. And the cycle of life works in mysterious ways, as we know it. So, when something really good happens, the life just have to kick in the ass and as they say give lemons. Okay, that sounds gross when I write it like that. The point here is that those few friends that I made are leaving, left the project. So, you see. LIFE! 
3. I spent a hell lot of money and when I say spent, I mean wasted. 
4. Thats' it ? WTH ! Seriously, is anyone going to kill me? 

Twenty - 14 ! 

I don't have much hopes for the year to come. Because I never understood what I would do differently. May be that is the reason, I am still stuck in this small world and not exploring. They say hope and passion drive the people's mind. Wait, did anyone say that! I just made it up! So when you ask Dude, what are your plans for next year? I reply with a Poker-face! So, don't ask me please. I really don't make plans for the future. Yes, I know I am weird and stupid; and also nothing is going to change that. Anyway, let me end this with a poem which I have been posting on every 31st December, that is the last day of the year.

"

Past has taught Lessons.

Memories have brought Happiness.

  Time has taught Living.

Mistakes have brought Wisdom. 

Now, New is the Year.

 New are the Aspirations and Dreams. 

 Behold the Newness.

 Step forward, Step Ahead.

 Here it comes, yet another Glorious Year. 

Welcome it. 

With a Smile on your Face.

And Hope in the Heart. 

Cherish the Past.  

Replenish the Future. 

And Never Forget,

Live the Moment.  

"

Okay, I agree, this is not a poem, in any angle. My apologies. But let me conclude with this.

"Wish you and your family a Happy and Prosperous New Year."

Life is short, just like 70-80 year. And remember I said something about the memories flashing before he eyes before we die, please do make sure that they aren't as vacant as mine. #JustSaying. 

In wrong shoes.

Day 3, Friday : Things that make you uncomfortable.

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When I first read the topic, so many thoughts came flooded in my mind. I figured out there were many than I had imagined. And I an finding it difficult to just sort out the mess that these thoughts have made in my mind. My mind always deceives me into believing into something untruly natural but a disguise in reality.

1. The Stage : There have been many times when I saw the stage as the death trap. Seriously. Whenever I am supposed to be on the stage, the hour before that I make plans in my mind about the same. And these plans turn our to be the best. Until I wake up from day-dreaming and the person besides me tells that its my turn and have to take the stage. My hands freeze, my throat becomes dry, I look at the ceiling or something away from fixed eyes and I stammer at every single word. That pretty much sums up to the most awkward presentation by me.

2. The Newbies : People who don't know me or whom I have just met. Sometimes, it often happens that these new people are very talented, knowledgeable and highly sophisticated people. These have the thinking level far above mine. So, when they talk and keep on talking about one topic, then another and then another I just stare at them nodding and smiling occasionally in agreement to what they are saying without understanding a single thing. All the time I lose track of what they are saying and then I don't know whether to look at them or just some random moving object at the back. And more over I am in a awkward situation when they ask me about my opinion. 

3. The Girls : With my past experiences, these group of people make me the most uncomfortable. Like I said earlier, my mind plays tricks with me. The scene inside my mind is so damn perfect and the execution of the same, not so nice. It was then I decided not to bother myself much about them. Now you know the reason. And the problem still persists. 

4. Loathers : The self centered egoist maniacs. That's what I call them. Actually, to start with I am not much bothered about them. I don't really care. But they happen to be in my way, walking besides me, and doing what they usually do, which is babble about themselves. I being a nice guy control myself, or else they might be in the hospital and myself, I guess you know. 

5. The Questionnaire : The viva-voce is undoubtedly on the top of list that make me uncomfortable. I skim through all the questions, all the topics, almost everything if I am interested in that subject; or else I don't even give a peek. Finally after an all-night-er, I end up satisfied with my preparation and rather too confident. Then it happens which I have no idea. I don't get a single thing to my mind and I am in the middle of the most uncomfortable situation having no idea where to look, at them or the ground. Not only that, when I know something about other people through other sources and in the conversation it slowly starts coming out, and they keep asking more about it and I have no idea whether to tell or just keep ignoring it.

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And a lot are coming to mind. I will stop ranting here. I think this should be enough about me for one day. The coming days have much more difficult topics and involve revealing more about myself. Phew! I hope people don't start hating me for that. 

#TheMeChronicles   #RevealingMyself

Adieu.

So Far - Till Now.

The year has almost ended. It is over. Almost over. This is the last day of the year. Glad, I am still here to write this post. I feel it was just yesterday that I wrote a post claiming my new resolutions and a greetings about the new year. A year has passed by then. Does it feel like the same to me? Nah. Not even a bit. Its all mixed up, crazy doodly-voodly in my mind. What was this year all about? Yeah, there were some tough days. Were there? I don't remember. Am I getting forgetful? Oh, yeah! Sure I am. There were really crazy turn of events lately this year. Some gave me a fine solid blow. Do you want to know ? Well, I am all yours today. I will tell anything you ask. All that you have to do is ask. 

So,like everybody else would probably say.. This year has been great for me and the year yet to come will be promising and I would like to do each and everything I wanted to do that I couldn't do in this year. But lets rewind back and see what this year had for me which I wouldn't have thought of. 

So Mr.AK (a.k.a AJ) How has the year 2012 been? 

In short, Nice and Unexpected. 

In Long, the year has been nice and a little bit unexpected. There you go .. in long. #JustKidding

I did a lot of things, wasted a lot of time, bought a lot of things, spent a lot, roamed a lot, bla bla. Let me summarize that. 

• First of all, I completed my B-Tech Engineering. Yay. Cool. But I didn't feel anything. I mean come on, I have a Bachelors degree and the percentage that I scored was also nice. I mean pretty great for a person like me. And whats' not to celebrate that? But I did't feel a thing like the sort of attachment, or the sense of achievement or whatever else the people would feel about completing college. No. Nothing. You are stone-hearted person, dude. Sorry, what-hearted? Never mind!
• In the process of completing my engineering, a lot happened. I will make it short. I was the project leader for the fourth year last semester. Yeah, No kidding. Me? Serious LOL. So, the project was a total bust and practically and theoretically we didn't do anything. The little work that we did was done by me. But at the last, all went fine. We got our grades. Phew! And there was another incident where I was about to be beaten up by some of my classmates just because I wrote something about them on the blog. Yeah, that's me being INSANE. And did I stop? Hell No. And that was just before the college was about to end. Look at me! Well Don't. And Phew! to that also. All was over in the first quarter. 
• I joined a JOB and my dad got transferred on the same day. Totally UnCool thing to happen to me. I started working and earning also. Well, technically speaking that wouldn't be called working yet, because I still haven't worked for the company so far. But I have been earning since I joined. So, I tell my friends that I am practically 'Jobless with a Job'. 
• I have spent a hell lot of money. You wouldn't believe if I say I have zero balance in my bank account. And the fact that I am home for holidays just saved me for the last week of the month. 
• Of all the things that I bought 80% of them are online. So, you can call me a online-shopaholic or may be lazy. 
• I traveled a lot. I mean I have to a lot many places that I could ever be in a year so far. So, this gave a chance to click more pictures than I usually could. So, traveled a lot , clicked a lot. 
• I made a lot many friends. Keeping aside the fact that I am one extremely calm guy and the one who doesn't talk unless provoked, I managed to make a good number of friends. Though the amount of friends made would probably be less. But still I managed some. 
• To be precise, I might have wasted a total of may be about 5 months. Though I have got a job, I haven't been to office like forever and thats' three months of forever and the remaining 2 months are the time that I wasted in the remaining 9 months. 
• I have been on flight the most this year. Something I always like. 
• The second was self-immoralization. Yeah. I am quite bit of order right now. Once I used to keep track of things I used to do, now I am losing that track. And also, I used to remember what I used to do and at what time(not precisely though). But now I am a total blunder. 
• The only thing that I might have done least is Sleeping ! No kidding there.
• The End of the World didn't happen for which I was eagerly waiting. But that day, I didn't even remember and all that became a big practical joke of the millennium. 

To summarize, I have outlived what I had never expected. And hence 2012 was one great year. Yeah, of course each year has its ups and downs, but at the end of the year I can just remember only the ups'. The harder I try to find the down's, I just can't find many. 

Now, Resolution Time ! Wait a minute, what were my this year's resolutions? Hmm... Let me think.. Nothing strikes... hmm... lemme check my blog post where I might have mentioned some of my resolutions. Oh, Darn! I just can't find any. I must have written them somewhere. Or may be you just didn't even make any. No. That's not possible. OR May be you are so obsessed to make a resolution list that you totally forgot about. Dear Mind, Give it a rest. Let me think. *Thinking* ... *Thinking*... ! Told ya. Ya, Ya, right! If I am not wrong, I made the resolutions in my mind. And If I had ever done any one of it, I would know. But the fact that I don't remember any makes it clear that I didn't strike anything of my list. So, this is what I am going to do. I will make up a list with exactly opposite of what I want to do and since I won't be remembering what those were anyway on the 1st day of the next year. No worries there. But if I do remember, I could gladly strike down the list one by one because it would have exactly of what I want to do. Didn't understand. Yeah, me neither. This guy is crazy. 

Most Awesome Moment?
I don't have some awesome moment, some sad moments. I just have moments in which some are good, some not. Wtf was that? Just answer the damn question. hmm, okay... At the top of the Ponmudi Hill Station covered in clouds.

Most Saddest moment?

Thats' a long list actually, but there are so many that I just can't find the right one. And what is with the question formation? Just like your answers, these questions are also blunt. Deal with it. 

Most Horrifying Moment?

The Delhi Gang Rape Incident.

The thing that you would recall when the year '2012' is mentioned? 

2012, The movie. No Jokes man.

Ok, fine. The year I got my first Job and first Salary. 

No more questions. Thats' it for now. Yeah, you are spared. Because the answers are hard to digest. 

Thank God. Whatever! 

There are so many things that happened, I think. I don't remember any of those. Didn't I mention earlier that I am losing track of myself and forgetting things. This is one of it. Like everybody say, in this year there were many ups and downs, there were many mistakes that were done and some good things also. Learning from the mistakes and moving ahead, I would like to be prosperous in the year to come. Seriously Kidding!! No shit. I was just shocked when I saw you write that. 

So, Looking back to 2012 in Style. :D

What the hell was this photo for? You're just impossible.

Whatever man! 

Anyways, Wishing you all a Happy and Prosperous New year. May this year bring you many surprises (good surprises) and add a lot of sunshine to your lives. 

Happy New Year 2013. 

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Take Care and Have Loads of Fun. :D

Bidding Farewell to 2012.

AK (Ajay Kontham) [2012]